Rules is you make yourself de not we make for you de

Really, rules and regulations is you make for yourself de, not people make for you de

You know why?

Because you choose to do this. YOU.

So don't blame us when you cannot do this or cannot do that.

Like for instance my year1, 

I sucked at solving friendship problems and people JUDGED me.

Yep, the truth hurts because they judge you, they judge how you solve problems 

And when I can't deal with jealousy, they judge me.

When I can't love someone I love, they judge me, they will be thinking "omg this girl like this guy, omg are you serious, the girl so fat and confirm the guy won't like this girl one la"

DOUBLE CONFIRM!

And so, they judged me, and I became who I am today.

You know, there wouldn't be anyone who trust me right now.

Like, there's nobody who will come and look for me for advices BECAUSE I SUCKED at dealing with MY OWN stress or problems.

So they will be thinking "Aiya this girl confirm cannot help me because I've seen how she dealt with her problems and it's nothing but RUN AWAY from it"

Sorry la but I'm born in this kind of environment, because in my family, 

there's nothing like "Oh come let's gather together and face the problem together"

NOPE WE'RE NOT LIKE THAT AT ALL

Or like some close mum-daughter-friendship-alike relationship who always have some htht in the midnight or they will cry together after every talk

NOPE, that will never happen to us.

We keep our problems to ourselves and unless it is really affecting one of us or anything that is urgent, then we will just merely talk about it. Not like those deep talks but just a "Oh really ah, ohhh then how?" kinda reply.

That's maybe why I don't like to share my problems with friends or anything because I'm brought up in this kind of environment.

It's not because of i don't trust that person or anything...it's just I am not used to it.

You see, in this 18 years of my life you want me suddenly pour out everything to someone that I've met for like not even 3 years or more, do you think i can? 

NO i can definitely tell you that I will not do that because how can someone adapt to a habit suddenly?

Unless kena forced but NOPE I'm not gonna do that.

That's maybe why I can't find any friends in my contact list to go out with me and no feeling awkward with the other party and idky i became like this

That's maybe why I'm so hard to trust even friends that I'm previously close with and always have deep talks with, left me and find another listener better than me, motivator better than me...

That's maybe why people always don't listen to my suggestion and always judge me behind my back and...

I don't wanna write about this anymore..

What's the meaning

A good friend is not only someone who you find when you need help.
A good friend is someone who sees your tweet and the next moment you received a WA message asking whether are you okay
A good friend is someone who cares about where have you been on any given day
A good friend is one who can directly say okay to your impromptu meet up session or just purely a dinner
A good friend is one who constantly reminding you that you can always rely on her/him, either a shoulder to cry on or just a talk about life
A good friend does not easily give more time on her/his partner than on friends, it should be equal..

We, really not meant to be
Good friends? Nope
It never exist
Because
I'm only good
When you need help
Yep.

Care // updates

As much as I don't really wanna care about my future now, it should be around this time that I have most time to think about it.

What happens after poly?
What job will I go for?
What do I have to offer?
Will I go overseas or will I be staying in singapore?
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Still kinda clueless for my future now
Guess im too used to the "走一步 算一步" thingy so I don't even have plans or even back up to plans. Yep.

Updates of holiday: left 3 more weeks till sem4 prog3! Kinda bored because nobody ask me out to play, shop, walk, or anything else. Got la but just very little, like the upcoming dinner with the usuals and maybe a whole day event with shiq and ralph?

Hais idk...plan thing also so difficult meh??
Among the two groups I'm like the most free one lor. Then the most busy one should plan because I dont know your schedules!!! Later this date then you say cannot, that date you also say cannot, then sua la don't plan don't go sua.

Printed pictures and placed them on the shelves, oh and, changed the position of placing the things on the shelves! Gonna go down to Daiso soon to see what I can find there for decorations!

Cleared unwanted notebooks from sem2 and sem3, a bit 不舍得 throw away dpp notes!! IKR THAT FEELING!!! But also put there dindey haha might as well hor
Buying notebooks is a joy! Bought around 7 new ones :-)

Bought TBS facial products too (again!) Tea tree oil and facial wash are the most frequently used! So they used up very fast! Oh and got a new facial one for night time! And I would like to say that the scrub facial wash (night) makes me love washing my face hehehe not to forgot about the mask too! Haha shiokkkk

Bought lead, magnets, duster and other stuffs too! Now trying to cut down spending so that can save! Cause no job so try to save? Hehe

Hobby(?): swim, maybe starting next week (which is tmr) swim thrice a week??? But the tan line so ugly hahaha coz is on my arm not on shoulder (shoulder one sexier hahahaha wth)

Friends

Real or not, we won't know until we try.
Felt so betrayed because someone that I trusted so much betrayed me.
Not really betray me but maybe she's just helping but I don't like the idea of you saying what I've told you to someone else.
Is this even call trust??

I will change my attitude to you starting from the next time I see you.

10 facts you might not know about me

1) I have two surnames because my grandma wanna keep her surname, so my father has two surnames since he is the eldest son, yep, so I have two surnames with my brother.

2) I love my dad. A lot. Just that I don't usually say "I love you" to him, but I appreciate what he has done for me. Ever since primary school, he was the one who gave me allowance, and sometimes, extra allowance.
Not that I don't love my mum, but when compared to my dad, he's better. He knows when I'm happy or sad and try to make things better. But sometimes, he can be real angry and we stop talking for days..

3) I'm a left hander, same as my brother, despite both my parents are right.
I was taught to learn using chopsticks or pencils with the right hand, but it failed.

4) I think respect and responsibility is very important. Only respect someone who respects you, because they matters. Responsible, you should do the right thing even when no one is watching.

5) I don't have a specific colour that I really like. White and blue was found recently when I found the nautical anchor pretty.
Blue, was told, to be a happy colour. (Maybe that's why facebook, twitter, tumblr are all blue)
White was because I like things pure, clean, tidy.
Oh there isn't any colour that I dislike though.
Red is elegant, pink is girly, orange is fresh,  yellow is sunshine, green is nature, purple is mysterious, black is bold, brown is skin, blue is happy and white is neat! Yay to rainbow spectrum.

6) I like to teach. Teaching teaches you too.
I love teaching my friends, I hope they don't mind my lousy explanation but I really love the idea that the information from one brain can be transferred to another. Good job to all the teachers and lecturers.

7) My laughing point is very low. Even those lame jokes that nobody is laughing, it is, sometimes, very funny to me.
I dont know why but it start during sec3 I think. Yep, and from then on I realised the real fun in my life

8) I like to eat. From traditional chinese food like popiah, fagao, chwee kueh, siew mai, ha gao, chee cheong fun,
to western food like pasta, pizza, cheese baked rice,
to local delights like carrot cake, chicken rice, bak chok mee, zichar, kwaychap,
to desserts like cheesecakes, puddings, creme brulee, waffle with icecream,
to jap/korean food like sushi, bento, korean bbq, baby squids, cold noodles, chawamushi,
to thai food like chicken feet, tomyam, pork wrapped with lettuce,
to basic seafoods like sotong, prawn, fish, crabs, oysters, clams etc
And a lot more.
But I don't wanna get fat.

9) I appreciate all my friends,  whether or not we're still contacting or we merely see each other once or twice a week, I appreciate all of them.
Those that I've been close lately/before, thanks to you who shaped to who I am today. If one of you was missing, I don't think I am who I am today. Whether or not is for the good or for the bad, if its over, is over and I don't think we'll wanna go back there right? :)
For all the good memories, thank you for all of them (there are too many to list). Those good memories make me appreciate you guys more and cheers to more great memories!

10) I love to sing too! Longest record 6 hours with friends (I miss them so much!) But I'm actually very shy *.*

I wanna try

Now, 18, feeling all active and have the time to party and whatnot...

So what are you waiting for???
I can't wait to party till late night and reach home at three or four am I don't even wanna think of how I get home
Probably will get super drunk at the pub and got drag home
Sleepover with drunkards which are my closest friends 

Try to get like more than 30 people or drunk, sleeping on each other in a room hehehe or like really all drunk like shitzz then we do crazy things together and the next day we're ready for work/ back to normal
All will have headache because of the excessive intake of alcohol
Try all the different alcohols and see what will I become by interviewing friends
Rent a van with friends and drive to beach and just sleep in the van with no worries
I wonder how heels, sexy dresses, alcohols, dance with have effect on me
Okay la maybe not that wild...hmm
Something like lie on grass see the skies in the night with someone I love????
Or like build a tent in the house pretend that we're in the forest hahaha then we can act like the other people outside the tent are the wild animals 

Or we can play with food and get all messy (omg I love) and we're done, we just clean up by getting even messier

Have our very own model catwalk by dressing up guys like girls and girls like guys

Come out with our own fake bakery and keep trying trying trying bake from morning to night time

Draw on walls in a room to keep our memories there forever

Have our first best friends vlog and make everyone else out there envy our friendship

Scuba diving with friends

I am crazy.....but its normal right coz..I'm young, alive and YOLO
Probably im really a guy inside, a guy that wanna be pretty, and gets attention. Owell~

results vs pandannnnn

Woke up so many times last night because I'm so nervous for my results.
Luckily, it was expected..heh, i happy can already.
And luckily, i didn't fail any module OMG I REALLY THOUGHT I AM GONNA FAIL HMT :/
Still told jialing that she might see me next sem hahaha

Anyway impromptu meet up with jialing for lunch at BK Amk and watched ''We are the Millers" after lunch.
Rate: 7.5/10 haha funny movie M18

Went to Espirit and she bought a pullover!
So proud of her buying her own clothes then next time her mum no need buy for her le!
Then she ownself also say "I should start doing what woman does" HAHAHA

Oh PANDAN CAKE THAT I WAS CRAVING FOR FOR SO LONG
He he he we past by Bangawan Solo and told her I was craving for that pandan cake for so long then she just buy!!! OMG OMG OMG YAYYYY THANKS <3

Dinner at homez, cramp at night like free flow HAHAHA wonder is this a description for cramp (owellllll painnnn)

Okay byeee

I HATE how much you thought things were so easy so easy you do la you so smart you do la come I give up my place for you you help me do
1) don't think that me staying at home for two days and never do housework means I really never do. Please la, I do for almost five days leh, and these two days are weekends, which is considered my off day because YOUR DAUGHTER is not working la

2) I stay at home for two days doesn't mean I didn't went out to exercise. You want to say im fat just say im fat don't need to say I didn't go out to exercise. I went out on Thursday and swam but I dont think you need to know that because you don't even deserve my explanation on how I did exercise.

3) bro did housework, because he was forced to, not because he is willing to. Get that clear.
So angry! DO NOT say that he did everything and I did nothing because those things that he's doing is wayyyyyyy too little compared to what I did. What has he done? What? Mop the floor only? Walao this is super easy la.
And me?? I don't think you ever realized. For any day that im at home, and the weather allows me to hang the clothes outside, I will wash the clothes!  And even sometimes twice a day because I don't wanna waste the sun. Fet that clear.

So angry and pissed off. This kind of people, judged me on only what you see, you better see the whole picture before even judging.

All the food photos this year until now! 2013

Mezzanotte Ice Cream near yummy duck rice stall

Baskin Robbins cost price similar in singapore (@ Vietnam)

Fruits, part of hotel breakfast (@ Vietnam)

Salad, part of hotel breakfast (@ Vietnam)

Bread (omg i love croissants!!), part of hotel breakfast (@ Vietnam)

Wyl made barley when Agnes and I went her house (@ Wyl's place)

Teochew style feast with family and grandma

Dinner (@ home)

Dinner (@ home)

Dinner (@ home)

We went SEA Aquarium that day and had this for dinner, (@ Vivo)

Jellies made with jialing when she came over 

One of the many nights at grandma's place we had supper, dabao from cafe and brought ice cream hehehe

Mum's fav dessert idk why (@ Foodcourt)

with wyl at EwF (@ Somerset)

Dinner (@ home)

Dessert time with hamizah on one of the days, (@CWP)

Dinner (@ home)

Dumplings and Spaghetti (@ Wyl's place)

Dinner (@ home)

One Sunday's breakfast (@ Home)

Supper (@ Cafe)

Lunch on a Sunday (@ Home)

Bak Kut Teh (@ Marsiling Place)

With Raagini having our waffles with ice cream (@ South Canteen)

With Joey having lunch (@ South Canteen)

Dinner (@ Home)

Dinner (@ Bugis)

Breakfast on a Saturday with bro (@ home)

Brunch (@ Yishun)

Desserts with wyl (@ Town )

Dinner (@ grandma's place)

Just Rosti and Cheese with LQ (@ Cafe)

Rum and Raisin ice cream with waffle with LQ (@ Cafe)

B&J ice cream found (@ Home)

Dinner with whole mum side family for Mothers' Day (@ Punggol)

Snacks I bought hahaha (@ South Canteen)

Lunch with Joey (@ South Canteen)

Dinner with the usuals (@ CWP Pizza Hut)

Breakfast Mum bought (@ home)

Dinner (@ Grandma's place)

Buffet with family and Auntie Irene's family (@ Somerset)

Buffet with family and Auntie Irene's family (@ Somerset)

Buffet with family and Auntie Irene's family (@ Somerset)

Subway for four Leos, Agnes, WJ, Joey and me (@ South Canteen)

Lunch with CJ (@ Jurong Point Bakerzin)

Dinner/ Gathering for Joseph's bday (@ Woodlands)

Paris Baguette with three pretty woman (@ Town)

Dinner (@ Home)

Jellies for gathering (@ Woodlands)

Gathering (@ Woodlands)

Gathering (@ Woodlands)

Gathering (@ Woodlands)

Dinner with dad (@ Food Court)

Dinner with the gurls (we went for a run before this) (@ Khatib)

Brunch all by myself (@ CWP)

I call this white oreo (@ home)

Puff, got from the buffet during the open house for Gary's house (@ Sembawang)

Pastamania with ma gurls (@ Bishan)

Redbean Potong to cure the heat on a Sunday (@ home)

Cheesecake from The Coffee Bean with Cj (@ JEM)

The Salad Stop with CJ (@ JEM)

Mum's version of potato salad and it was awesomeeee (@ home)

BBQ day (@ CCK)

Sakae sushi with the family (@ Yishun)

Oreo with colourful bits (@ home)

Dinner (@ Home)

Bought this after DPP exam hahaha (@ Adm place)

Yam ice cream (@ home)

Dinner (@ Home)

Early dinner with the gurls (@ Bugis)

EwF with Joey (@ Bugis)

Breakfast Part 2 with LQ (@ NYP Koufu)

Lunch (@ Home)

L'Rez with the guys who celebrated my birthday (@ NYP)

MEDZS with three pretty woman for my birthday celebration (@ Somerset)

Dinner at Cedele with YT and CJ (@ Somerset)

Aug 1st, SDN's Red Velvet Cupcake (@ Level 1 Block Q)

Korean buffet for celebration of my birthday with the usuals (@ Novena)

Good Food (@ Chong Pang)

Macd breakfast (@ home)

Lunch (@ Home)

ICC (@ Yck)

Sushi that mum bought (@ home)

Lunch with wyl (@ Bishan)

Deep fried dumplings (@ 768)

Pizza hut with the gurls to celebrate end of exams (@ Serangoon NEX)

Tarts (@ Serangoon NEX)

Hazwani's open house (@ CCK)

Saturday's lunch (@ home)

Dinner dapao (@ Home)

Made blueberry pancake for brunch on a Saturday (@ home)

Dinner (@ Home)