I shall tell you.

I shall tell you since I've nobody to talk to.
I shall tell you that I've more or less got over something that once meant so much to me.
I shall tell you that I've probably officially step out of the ugly truth
and accept the fact that he's not the right guy for me.
I shall tell you that I still will befriend with him just that there's nothing much left between me and him.

I don't even wish anything happen between us anymore.
I don't even have the energy to fight for what I wanted so much last time
I don't want history to repeat itself because I don't like to repeat a mistake twice.

I never wanted things to end up like this
but I guess I didn't have a choice
because everybody have a freedom to love who they want to
and find someone that is worth their time.

To whoever that still is interested or willing to listen to me, 
I want you, to say "Congratulations" to me, for enduring the hardship (that nobody knew this will happen) for almost a year and a half.
It is a tough decision, to fight with what you have and what you want.
But eventually what you have doesn't give you what you want.
You don't gain from there.

You should know, nobody's on my back.
You should know, I suck at telling how I feel.
You should know, my "friends" aren't my real friends.
You should know, my parents aren't the best problem solver.
You should know, my "peers" don't even wanna care.
You should know, people aren't real.

YOU REALLY SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
How hard it was, to come to this stage.
Where nothing else matters anymore.
Where nobody else matter anymore.
Where I don't matter anymore.


I don't hate you.
I don't like you either.