Everyone wants to capture the attention of someone special but they are, too, afraid that the other party might felt irritated.
This is based on a real life storyline that has not come to an end but I wanna have this chance to write this plot to let this whole memory remain.
So there's this girl, hyper and a happy-go-lucky girl.
They were in the same class, till now. As usual, there will be "matchmakers" around pushing them together and I was one of them. The others don't really know about their feelings towards each other at that time until one of us started playing the truth or dare game and till now we are still talking about this pair.
I don't really know since when they grew feelings for each other but I am very sure that there is still something going on between the two of them just that they stopped talking and nobody's taking the initiative to have a real talk with each other.
We have high hopes for this pair. Once, there was this recorded file that I accidentally heard in my phone. Guess what? It was the "interview" that they had and I recorded it for memory sake. It was too long, around 49 minutes. That was too long ago, probably during Semester 1 when we were so free to play.
They both wanted to know how the other party felt for them. We were there, "helping" but...
A year has passed. We aren't that free anymore. Projects, reports, work are piling, not to mention the tests and competitive environment.
They weren't as close as before. They aren't talking to each other now. It was sad. Ending should not be like this. I hope they change and become like how they were previously, where teasing was fun and texting wasn't a chore but a sweet memory.
Thursday 27 June 2013
Tuesday 25 June 2013
still thinking of what to name where ppl there didn't have the chance to have a thought of this
I guessed I didn't really have the right reasons to leave or to give up.
This time is because maybe I don't have the support of anyone (I didn't even have the support of anyone even until now) I think is mainly because I don't really like to expose my inner feelings to anyone anyhow because I don't know where will my feelings go to or what will it become in the end if it is spread.
Call me childish but i still believe that the word 'spread' is still there even though nobody uses this word anymore and people start to assume that others will mind their own business and shut their mouth up whenever they hear anything. I don't know and I never will.
I can truthfully say that this is actually a good experience to give everyone a test on my reaction and the result is? It affects how people treat me now. I am actually a very good and funny person if you don't step into my danger zone and I am very sensitive of my emotions and I can be touched or feeling teary now but feeling super happy the next minute.
It's okay if you don't wanna support me but just don't say bad things behind my back will do. Unless my life is so perfect and you want my life so badly la, then I give you lor bo bian.
I know I should be grateful of everyone that I have. Comparing myself to the worst kid in Africa or anywhere else, they might not have a room (with aircon), a table (with laptop), a chair (with proper seat), or like most of us, have parents (both working and healthy), have friends (are healthy and helpful), have education (which we are complaining on how stressful we are here in first world country), have food (even we're full we still go for more and we have the healthy and nutritional food here, oh and we always waste food that we "claimed" to say we're to full for this but we just meant that we're bored of this).
Blessed.
This time is because maybe I don't have the support of anyone (I didn't even have the support of anyone even until now) I think is mainly because I don't really like to expose my inner feelings to anyone anyhow because I don't know where will my feelings go to or what will it become in the end if it is spread.
Call me childish but i still believe that the word 'spread' is still there even though nobody uses this word anymore and people start to assume that others will mind their own business and shut their mouth up whenever they hear anything. I don't know and I never will.
I can truthfully say that this is actually a good experience to give everyone a test on my reaction and the result is? It affects how people treat me now. I am actually a very good and funny person if you don't step into my danger zone and I am very sensitive of my emotions and I can be touched or feeling teary now but feeling super happy the next minute.
It's okay if you don't wanna support me but just don't say bad things behind my back will do. Unless my life is so perfect and you want my life so badly la, then I give you lor bo bian.
I know I should be grateful of everyone that I have. Comparing myself to the worst kid in Africa or anywhere else, they might not have a room (with aircon), a table (with laptop), a chair (with proper seat), or like most of us, have parents (both working and healthy), have friends (are healthy and helpful), have education (which we are complaining on how stressful we are here in first world country), have food (even we're full we still go for more and we have the healthy and nutritional food here, oh and we always waste food that we "claimed" to say we're to full for this but we just meant that we're bored of this).
Blessed.
Holiday Week 2
Never really update this space because I know once I update I will need of things to write which is, sometimes, testing my memory. So I will just write down what I remembered :)
Mon- #slacker can't even absorb what im studying so I did what I'm most good at- multi tasking, while studying use laptop. So ended up? Facebook Youtube and Twitter seems SO SO SO much more interesting than studying.
Tues- Went to school with Jl to study and didn't know that Faheem, Aashiq and Fi was there hehehe was doing some hmt and fpm until my head hurts and then i bought panadol hahaha went home early too to sleep then wake up repeat what I've done on monday hahaaaa
Wed- Meet Fi to study in school and it was kinda impromptu haha then we were searching for tutorial rooms . We went from level 7 then 6, 5, then 4, 3. Wanted to give up, went to level 7 to try again. And guess who we saw? Emma and Faiezin hehehe SHARE ROOOOOOOOOOM HAHAHA
Oh ya bad haze bad bad haze.
Studied with them till quite late hahaha
Thurs- make up tut for fpm. oh we had cup noodles for dinner!! with raagini and joey coz we didn't wanna have macs and subway is closed :(
I DONT RMB FRIDAY HAHA or was I at home? No idea
Sat- woke up at 11 plus and started study (felt the rush already) so i studied for 6 hours (fpm) hehehe,
mission accomplished!!!
Sun-house warming at garry's place and got buffet hahaha and i ended up studying maths there haha btw pretty house :)
Mon- #slacker can't even absorb what im studying so I did what I'm most good at- multi tasking, while studying use laptop. So ended up? Facebook Youtube and Twitter seems SO SO SO much more interesting than studying.
Tues- Went to school with Jl to study and didn't know that Faheem, Aashiq and Fi was there hehehe was doing some hmt and fpm until my head hurts and then i bought panadol hahaha went home early too to sleep then wake up repeat what I've done on monday hahaaaa
Wed- Meet Fi to study in school and it was kinda impromptu haha then we were searching for tutorial rooms . We went from level 7 then 6, 5, then 4, 3. Wanted to give up, went to level 7 to try again. And guess who we saw? Emma and Faiezin hehehe SHARE ROOOOOOOOOOM HAHAHA
Oh ya bad haze bad bad haze.
Studied with them till quite late hahaha
Thurs- make up tut for fpm. oh we had cup noodles for dinner!! with raagini and joey coz we didn't wanna have macs and subway is closed :(
I DONT RMB FRIDAY HAHA or was I at home? No idea
Sat- woke up at 11 plus and started study (felt the rush already) so i studied for 6 hours (fpm) hehehe,
mission accomplished!!!
Sun-house warming at garry's place and got buffet hahaha and i ended up studying maths there haha btw pretty house :)
Wedding pre and post
Saturday
pre wedding. I love how bonded we are when it comes to events like this. Like how we gather every Saturday. Today's dinner was at the kopitiam under Ade house.
By looking at how the emcees are preparing, photographer and receptionist. Benefits of having a big family- because emcees, photographer and receptionist are our very own family members. GO EVERYONE. :)
By looking at how the emcees are preparing, photographer and receptionist. Benefits of having a big family- because emcees, photographer and receptionist are our very own family members. GO EVERYONE. :)
Never knew the background of a wedding, until now.
Being a servant in hotels for people's wedding is already very troublesome. How bout the background of everything for this wedding? Hehe compared to theirs, mine is nothing. HAHAHA congrats to the newly weds and lets welcome to a new family member! :-)
Being a servant in hotels for people's wedding is already very troublesome. How bout the background of everything for this wedding? Hehe compared to theirs, mine is nothing. HAHAHA congrats to the newly weds and lets welcome to a new family member! :-)
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Haiya I havent really start to study lehhhhh how! I will feel very very extremely confirm feel guilty coz I've wasted half of my holidays! But holidays, I love you so...
Probably this is the time where I need to find myself. I don't wanna be influenced by other people. I hope so.
Haiya I havent really start to study lehhhhh how! I will feel very very extremely confirm feel guilty coz I've wasted half of my holidays! But holidays, I love you so...
Probably this is the time where I need to find myself. I don't wanna be influenced by other people. I hope so.
Sunday, wedding day.
Everyone was so excited for the wedding ;)
Everyone was so excited for the wedding ;)
Sunday:
It was the wedding day and of course, everybody in our family is excited coz' this is our first time held a wedding for our gen (grandchild).
He, the first child everyone sees, the only child who saw my grandpa, and he, the one that we have so much respect of because he is the oldest among all; today, is his BIG day and I am sure that everyone's proud of him.
During the montage, a lot of them cried...
they saw the memories they had,
they saw their loved ones,
they think back of how carefree
and happy they were when they were younger.
Everybody in my family teared.
Following that was the speech, which touches everybody's heart and I will still have goosebumps till now whenever I think of the some lines that he've said.
It goes like "Ma, thank you for waiting for me for the 2 years that Im not in Sg.."
Couldn't take it and what I did was just burst into tears (emotional person)
Ok enough of sad and touching stories,
I am so glad and proud that I have seen such a great wedding even though it only lasted for a few hours,
the love will never come to an end.
So we took family portraits after the event and ended up the curtains became our background and the aisle become our modeling place ahahaha family bonding time teehee
Rest a little in the hotel room and had fun snapping pictures and going to another room to see how the brothers drink and drunk lol ew I think if you wanna make someone drink you should at least take the responsibility of what will happen if he's really drunk. :/
Went out for food at Ion and FEP, came back to hotel room saw tearing people..oh my heart melts..
You know how everytime adults talk about their histories
how they compromise,
how they accept their fate,
how much they've scarificed, suffered and
how much they miss just to go back to the past.
Tuesday 18 June 2013
Friday 14 June 2013
yet another checkpoint
"Every wound cuts a little deeper when you start to let go" -me.
One day, it is never healed wound, but, numb wound.
When can I leave in peace, yes leave. Leave this bittersweet memories.
But I've probably get over 70% of it say real one. Every now and then, I think of the memories made, I won't be as heartache as before. So maybe this is a checkpoint for me :) YAY
JIAYOU. ok i should spend my precious time with books BEFORE I START TO REGRET AND FEEL GUILTY BIG TIME. SORRY EVERYBOOKS HAHAHAHA I STILL LOVE YOU OKAY.
MUACKS MUACKS
Song of the day: 爱回温/温岚
One day, it is never healed wound, but, numb wound.
When can I leave in peace, yes leave. Leave this bittersweet memories.
But I've probably get over 70% of it say real one. Every now and then, I think of the memories made, I won't be as heartache as before. So maybe this is a checkpoint for me :) YAY
JIAYOU. ok i should spend my precious time with books BEFORE I START TO REGRET AND FEEL GUILTY BIG TIME. SORRY EVERYBOOKS HAHAHAHA I STILL LOVE YOU OKAY.
MUACKS MUACKS
Song of the day: 爱回温/温岚
Monday 10 June 2013
Last week of school before study break
Everything happened too quickly, even faster than what I expected. Surely we had lots of fun this entire week. There are a few days we went home very late just because of work and tests. Oh not to forget the amount of work we had last week was piling...a lot.
We had like two tests, equiz, 3 lab reports, tutorials to chiong, presentation etc. But work aside, I think everyone did a great job by surviving and truly enjoyed the entire week.
Wednesday:
Supposed to start school at 10 but started at 1, ended at 2. Hehehe coz no jack lai gsm. :-p
Did some touchup on our scrubber. Stayed back wanted to do hmt lab report but failed, wanted to do fpm lab report also failed.
So to not to waste my energy for bringing phone charger, laptoo charger, laptop and mouse, I did dpp while the others are busying on their scrubbers. It was raining.
Nonetheless still did some review questions on dpp to revise for test on Friday and gavin joined me in the end. The comes yh and preston. Hahaha we're like stucked on a particular question! (Which was similar to dpp test last question OMG)
Ya then at around six plus, gave tuition on dpp to firdaus, started at six plus and we ended at 10. Almost three hours of dpp "lecture" by doing the review questions. (I hope it helps la, if It doesn't then idk what to do hahaha).
After that went home with the five guys- Wj gavin yh preston faheem. Preston took bus so the rest we took train tgt. Hahaha Faheem's scrubber machiam jet pack can shoot up anytime.
Oh I rmb this day I didn't had dinner and my stomach was like vibrating in the night around 2am.
We had like two tests, equiz, 3 lab reports, tutorials to chiong, presentation etc. But work aside, I think everyone did a great job by surviving and truly enjoyed the entire week.
Wednesday:
Supposed to start school at 10 but started at 1, ended at 2. Hehehe coz no jack lai gsm. :-p
Did some touchup on our scrubber. Stayed back wanted to do hmt lab report but failed, wanted to do fpm lab report also failed.
So to not to waste my energy for bringing phone charger, laptoo charger, laptop and mouse, I did dpp while the others are busying on their scrubbers. It was raining.
Nonetheless still did some review questions on dpp to revise for test on Friday and gavin joined me in the end. The comes yh and preston. Hahaha we're like stucked on a particular question! (Which was similar to dpp test last question OMG)
Ya then at around six plus, gave tuition on dpp to firdaus, started at six plus and we ended at 10. Almost three hours of dpp "lecture" by doing the review questions. (I hope it helps la, if It doesn't then idk what to do hahaha).
After that went home with the five guys- Wj gavin yh preston faheem. Preston took bus so the rest we took train tgt. Hahaha Faheem's scrubber machiam jet pack can shoot up anytime.
Oh I rmb this day I didn't had dinner and my stomach was like vibrating in the night around 2am.
Thursday:
We had a crazy taking picture session during euo lab on thursday and it awesome hahaha the unglam pics, photo bombers and etc, took pics with out models too! OH AND, my group's scrubber got 85% efficiency!!!! YAY SO PROUD OF MY GROUP!
Went for gathering and celebrated belated bday for jojo with hs zz cy hehehe
Went for zichar and its not bad! Hahaha then after that we ended up at some void deck under the block for them to play game lololol
S4 is so damn cool laaaa
Went home quite late also and I very late then sleep these few days.
We had a crazy taking picture session during euo lab on thursday and it awesome hahaha the unglam pics, photo bombers and etc, took pics with out models too! OH AND, my group's scrubber got 85% efficiency!!!! YAY SO PROUD OF MY GROUP!
Went for gathering and celebrated belated bday for jojo with hs zz cy hehehe
Went for zichar and its not bad! Hahaha then after that we ended up at some void deck under the block for them to play game lololol
S4 is so damn cool laaaa
Went home quite late also and I very late then sleep these few days.
Friday:
Wore the nyp shirt with like 2/5 of the class hahaha and oh, we ended up leaving school at 11 plus due to modeling, singing, dancing lololol they are so funny. Phew completed the fpm report which was by that Friday. Was too busy to edit anything from the fpm lab report file so I didn't even open it, but I got download laaa (no la actually I very lazy also, was studying dpp ma)
Then sp4 presentation and woahhh we were so nervous lor.
Wore the nyp shirt with like 2/5 of the class hahaha and oh, we ended up leaving school at 11 plus due to modeling, singing, dancing lololol they are so funny. Phew completed the fpm report which was by that Friday. Was too busy to edit anything from the fpm lab report file so I didn't even open it, but I got download laaa (no la actually I very lazy also, was studying dpp ma)
Then sp4 presentation and woahhh we were so nervous lor.
Dpp test was alright. I bet if I were to study more or know what's coming out or even try to pay more attention to the lecture even though it sounded boring. Hahaha oh sorry hmt, my sp4 group didn't even listen to your lecture hahaha opps. We were busy with dpp and sp4 laaaa (and we continued even during lunch break) its like omg everyone's chionging dpp and sp4 also. Three groups of people all at level1 doing work. In the end, I dont think the dpp test is very hard leh..its just, if you did study more, definitely A is not a problem. I think I'll get around B or B- for this time. Hahah talking about sixth sense or predicting future or anything, I think im quite good at it hahaha okay enough of showing off.
YAY PROCEED TO PICTURES!
my scrubber :D
Titanic on land version lolol
MY DEAR SP PARTNER I WONT FORGET
thursday dinner zichar woodlands
Went for belated bday dinner for Jojo! Hehehe and may I present to you guys these are our dinner :) 
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