Nobody

2:12am Sunday
Felt so much
Lost everything
Lost the battle
Lost the person
Lost the relationship
Lost myself
Where am I?!
Who am I?!
What am I?!
I know it's not worth it but I'll still try
Maybe it won't work out at the end
Maybe I'm just thinking way too much
Maybe it was just coincidental
Oh god....I ruined everything
By me
Myself
Someone help me?
Felt like a complete lost soul finding the way "home"
Is everything gonna be the same as before?
Really?!
Really?!
Really?!
Really?!
I don't know I am so confused.
So angry and sad....
2:17 crying to sleep

Two.

Two questions to ask you. I am on my way on giving up, please do not interrupt my performance. Please do not come back as and when you like cause this isn't a place for you. This is just a wall. Well I guessed we didn't really moved on. We're still good. Better that ever. Not as close as I thought.
But how I wish what I've imagined came true. It's hard to swallow the truth that you are surrounded by so many yet I'm just the only one. Guessed that dream that day is trying to tell me that I'm all alone. However, the ending was I got you. So tell me, isn't it very ironic?
What if the truth is we both didn't know about the truth...
That will be so funny.
I guess
I am
Just a
Replacement.

Dont see the meaning behind it anymore

Yes I still laugh. Yes I still cry. Yes I am still me. But did you notice the slightest change? I bet you didn't.
I don't see the objective of me being there anymore. Everything I did was just to catch you when you fall. What if I say today I just don't wanna save you again...
You'll never know that it's tiring to push away things just for you..they will be like "oh you're not free again? Well ok never mind." for not just once, but a lot of times.
I guessed its tiring....when the original reason behind what I've done is no longer valid anymore. Maybe.
Guessed I sacrificed the wrong thing from the start. Now what is left hanging? Feelings. They don't know where to go.
Yes I still have feelings...I will feel guilty too. I am still a human. I am what you guys are talking about.
Shouldn't I have the rights to know what's going on behind me but about me cos' it's related to me?!

Saving you is not my job actually.

What is it that I don't know.

Is it insecure or is it overthinking? I have already figured out who not to trust....or maybe who I should avoid. I know by "don't trust those who lie and dont lie to those that trusted you".
Bitch please you're so disgusting.
Even though I have my "escape button" it was just for a while.....ok at least I have them. Sometimes some things just can't say.
Second week of school is like...I felt so worthless. Someone? Thank me for what I've always do?! No? :(
Okay.....
Maybe ignorance is not the right way
Maybe be myself is a better way
Nothing seems to feel right right now
But I know everything will be fine
Nobody can help me go through this
But it'll be better day by day
Sometimes we need to let go
To see what's worth more of our time
Letting go is not as easy as you think
But I'll try my best
Each day same drama
Different episodes same shit
No I'm not complaining
But why is she so irritating?
The easiest thing is the hardest to teach
Seems like everyone have their own weakness
Understanding is hard
I know who I can't trust
There's so much you can take
So many people are there for you
Does it even matter if one is out
I don't think it will work
You just wanna the fame
But nothing seems to be the same
We are further than what you think
Kind of worthless now
Still sacrificing?
Will you regret...
History is haunting me
C'mon let me cry
Don't do good anymore
It hurts when you care
It hurts when you don't
Maybe they are better
I was right

What are you hiding?