People

I dont understand people. Understand them. It's hard. I know that I don't know and I won't know what they have been through. Thats why it's hard to understand them. Some may think that by listening, you will understand. But in the end, you don't. Ya, you don't. That must be the reason why I can't understand you. We need time.
You see, some secrets or feelings they only share with someone comfortable. Then you feel like helping but that person denies that he's feeling down. I mean, I want to know what happened when you're feeling down, why can't you just tell me?
Ok well, maybe you don't trust me......or maybe I get this whole thing wrong.
I asked you to chat with her because I know, from my point of view, you're the closest to her.
So please help her cos I can't, I never can.
It breaks my heart to see someone who's acting strong but breaking into pieces deep inside.
I want them to be happy. I want everybody to be happy. Or..only to those who deserve to be happy, to be happy.

Understanding me is another thing. It's hard understanding me. I don't say what I feel easily. I don't have closest friend/s since primary school. Maybe Im born with the disability to keep the friendship long.
I don't know if people are planning to leave me already until now...but I wanna say that I did enjoyed those moments with you till now. The end of 2012. Eradicate those bad memories, everything's good.
Once, I had a best friend...but she left. It hurts. Really. Hurts badly. There's a scar. People dont know how little actions/things/words hurts the most. So they took it very lightly. Very lightly till the extent that nobody even notice what had happened. Is there even a change or a slight difference between you both?  That was one year ago.

Maybe that person whom you thought can be really happy very easily won't have negative thoughts inside.....but you're wrong.
Thought of it and this is how I explain. Cos the bigger the negative number, after a modulus, you'll get a big positive number.
So if it is on a number line, and at 0, there's a mirror, the further you go to the right, the further you appear in the mirror...which means the further you'll be at the left if right is happy and left is sad. The happier you are, the more you cry because of sadness.
They say "the person who appears the happiest everytime hides the most pain inside" it might be true.

Idky but these few days keep dreaming of you. I should stop, right?
I should give up right?
Cos they say "if you love someone you should let him/her go"
But....I need to know whether you have feelings for me. If don't have, I will let you go, to find your happiness. :)