So holidays are here. Best time evaaaaa
Around one and a half months im not gonna see you. I think there are pros and cons to it.
If I would to think of the brighter side, maybe this is the time that I can find back myself and be originally who I am.
4 months, I felt too much.
There is the
1) dont know who to trust
2) jealous for nothing
3) sweet moments
4) late night calls/texts/webcam
5) found out that actually the one who is holding a gun is right beside you
6) fear to accept the truth
7) touching moments and 17th birthday
8) thankful to have *overall* a great bunch of friends around
9) didnt meant to hurt those who are innocent
10) realised that, really, 勉强是没有幸福的
11) fell to easily
12) stressful work
13) Study sunday(s)
14) found my motivation(which might be gone soon)
15) realized that being happy is very easy, but some just tried too hard..
I am very sure that im gonna avoid taking the initiative again. Cos IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER isnt? For four times, all late replies. YOU ARE THAT BUSY UH?
ok forget it.
Dont wanna talk about how sad this could be cos in the end im only poking a hole in my heart which needs 100% care before it shatters again.
Starting April it will be a tough fight, between me and studies. Dont even know how did I do for the recent exams but I have a strong feeling that it wont be like what ive expected. Reason? You.
Ive read about horoscope and it says that people who are your sign are stubborn at times, where you know its impossible but ypu still wanna hold on. Lemme tell you, it hurts.
The truth hurts.
Why are you going to please someone that you know is gonna hurt you, soon?
Okay shouldnt talk about this anymore.
ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS.
Ok to conclude, life might be as fun as it seems but look at how much effort you need to put in before everything's fine, settled down etc. It takes time.
I might need some time to get over it, and not to let it affect my studies anymore.
